What I Want

i'm copying you on this one hannah

sorry

i want to be alone

i want to never have to be alone again

i want my dad to shut up

stop being hurtful

and get off his high horse

he's not perfect either

i want my mom to shut up

understand more

stop treating me like a maid

i want her to hug me

i want to not be too big to sit on her lap

i want to be so big i can hit her back when she hits

me

i want to be the favorite child
i want attention

i want to be famous

for good things only

i want to leave

i want to leave the state

the country

the world

i want to leave this house

i want to be free

to do what i want

and i want a lot

here's some more

i want world peace

a surefire cure for cancer

suicide attempts

and heartache

i want to be loved by all

i want to be loved by one particular person

who shall remain nameless

i want to never be replaced

ever

not as a friend

not as a girlfriend

not as a person

i want to be remembered

i want to learn how to surf

ride a horse

play soccer

volleyball

and basketball

and be good at it all

i want to be more athletic

i want to be skinny

i want to not burn

just tan

i want blond hair

wait red hair

wait purple hair

i don't care hair

just different than the hair i have now

i want to have 20/20 vision

i want to have straight white teeth

i want to have dimples

i want to have long legs

i want to be less uinque

opinionated

strange

weird

different

i want a normal name

a normal religion

a normal voice

i want to sound like a girl

i want to not be ashamed of my laugh

i want the uncertain

i want the facts

i want truth

i want what my subconscious is telling me

i don't want

i want all that

and so much more

but for now

it's left unspoken

it's better that way

for all of us