Bandanna Wearing Freak

i am a bandanna wearing freak
and proud
deal with it

Birthday Wishes To Myself

life is like a bud,
opening up.
full of new possibilities.
but not for me.
because i've given up on getting what i want.
i've finally learned my lesson.
after 14
LONG
years of heartache.
severe disappointment syndrome
is
NOT
a pleasant feeling to have.
in fact,
it sucks.
but,
i should be used to it by now,
i guess.
because nothing goes right for me,
not even when i wish
on my 15 birthday candles.
happy birthday to me.
but,
why?
because it wasn't happy.

I Wish

things i wish for
there are a lot
i wish i could play piano brilliantly without ever having to practice
but i can't
i wish i could get all the answers right in class so the teacher couldn't humiliate me in front of
everyone
but i can't
i wish i could work up the nerve to admit my feelings to myself
but i--
oh, wait
that one i did
and i'm the proudest i could ever be of myself
ever
but i'm not so proud of my manipulation skills
i've hurt people with my actions before
many people
my friends
my enemies
even my family
and i formally apologize
because i feel bad about it
there
are you all happy now

Mood Swings

my good humor's going down the drain

you know what sucks

you know what really sucks

life sucks

and no

i'm not being melodramatic

i'm just pissed

i shall explain:

missing 2 days of school,

so you're behind

1.

the guy you like likes your best friend,

enough said

2.

your other best friend pissed at you (filthy hypocrite)
because he THINKS YOU'RE FAWNING

I AM DOING NOTHING LESS THAN WHAT YOU DO/DID

3.

do i really need to go on

i didn't think so

The Show Must Go On--Even If One Of The Main Players Is Absent

a new door is opening.

hello world.
hello readers.

hello sound of children playing outside.

i could join you.

if i choose to.

but i am a recluse.

so i stay inside.

and hide.

welcome to Silver And Cold Once More--Deal With It.

it's my life.

and i'll cry if i want to.

cry if i want to.

cry if i want to.

you would cry too if it happened to you.

i am alone.

enjoy...