It's Called Being Dramatic, Sweetheart

We exaggerate misfortune and happiness alike. We are never as bad off or as happy as we say we are.

Honore de Balzac (1799-1850)

Yes, Thank You, This Is Me

I do not want people to be very agreeable, as it saves me the trouble of liking them a great deal.

Jane Austen (1775-1817)

Why Maital, You Look Lovely Today

If you can't get a compliment any other way, pay yourself one.

Mark Twain (1835-1910)

Too True

Is death the last sleep? No, it is the last final awakening.

Sir Walter Scott (1771-1832)

The Picture Of Dorian Gray

oscar wilde was not only gay
he was freaking insane
insanity
madness
brilliance
genius
but i have to say
he dug his own damn grave

Shall We Dance

shall we dance
shall we then say good night and mean
good bye
oh but chance
when the last something star has left the sky
=
how much i know of my song
yikes is right

Good

i may be a bad daughter
i may be a bad sister
i may be a bad friend
a bad girlfriend
a bad student
but i am not a bad person
i am not
i am not
i am good

The Lake

the lake
can be bad
do you know how bad
the lake can be
the lake is so bad
it can kill you

Three

catch my breath
in my chest
three little words
"are you going"
does he want
me to go
or is he
just curious about
my life because
we haven't talked
in a while

The Boleyn Inheritance

accusations
threats
lies
binding
family
ties
a fortune
in exchange for
a soul
madness
overwhelming
grief
tiptoe
every
step
afraid

Music Of The Night

Nighttime sharpens
heightens each sensation
Darkness stirs and
wakes imagination
Silently the senses
abandon their defences
Slowly gently
night unfurls its splendour
Grasp it sense it
tremulous and tender
Turn your face away
from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away
from cold, unfeeling light
and listen to
the music of the night
Close your eyes
and surrender to your
darkest dreams
Purge your thoughts
of the life
you knew before
Close your eyes
let your spirit
start to soar
And you'll live
as you've never
lived before
Softly deftly,
music shall surround you
Feel it hear it
closing in around you
Open up your mind
let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness which
you know you cannot fight
the darkness of
the music of the night
Let your mind
start a journey through a
strange new world
Leave all thoughts
of the world
you knew before
Let your soul
Take you where you
long to be
Only then
can you belong
to me
Floating falling
sweet intoxication
Touch me trust me
savour each sensation
Let the dream begin
let your darker side give in
to the power of the music that I write
the power of the music of the night

Vermin

ver*min (noun)
[vurmin]
1. destructive animals or insects
small animals or insects that harm people, livestock, property, or crops and are difficult to control, e.g. rats, weasels, fleas, or cockroaches
2. offensive term
an offensive term for a person or group considered to be extremely unpleasant or undesirable

that explains a lot

...

turn around and
walk away
something she can't
do
count your blessings
every day
that she is not
you

Inside Out

drown in sorrow
relish joy
laugh at anger
it's your toy

dance with lightning
once again (a-gane)
eat up thunder
ignore pain

melting into a little puddle of colored wax
i pull back the curtain
sweep out the dark corners of the
attic of my
mind

live for moments
such as these
hug me kiss me
love me please

fingernail clippings
stab my heart
see me shaking
ripped apart

i have dared to bite the vampire
howl at the werewolf
stomp on cliches

i have managed to relinquish my power
admit my accomplishments
glare at mistakes

dream of a better world
a different world
a new world
dream of awakening
forsaking peace
attempting war

laugh at yourself
but not at me
i'll kill you if you do
of all this advice
you must remember
to thine own self be true

Peace

none of it
in this house

Stupid Little Wish

i wish i could understand myself
i wish i could dissect my thoughts
psychoanalyze my feelings
but i can't

Little Story

the girl chopped off her hair one day
it was blond and straight and silky
but she cut it short and
permed it and
dyed it dog-crap brown
the girl got brown contacts one day
to cover her brilliant blue eyes
she also got glasses
with thick lenses
the girl had reverse liposuction done one day
she also ate a lot of fattening food and
never exercised and
had surgery to shorten her long skinny legs
the beautiful girl uglified herself one day
just for the heck of it
to see what living like the other kind was like
so she could have even more mixed pity and contempt for them
but wait a second
this is the real world
like THAT would ever happen in reality

Way Back When

when i was little i was cute
when i was little i was innocent
when i was little i told my piano teacher that one day i wanted to be
discovered
but i didn't tell her what that meant
i don't remember saying that
when i was little i kicked butt
when i was little i was afraid of water
but now i don't think it was the water i was afraid of
it was the deep dark unknown of the plunge
when i was little i was skinny
when i was little i was different
still am different
always will be different
not much difference there
ha
when i was little i never got zits
when i was little i didn't love
i didn't know what to love meant
i still don't know what it means
when i was little i cried
and cried
and cried
when i was little i was red
but now i'm black
when i was little i never got guilty
never felt ashamed
never hated myself
when i was little i was living
when i am big...
now i remember

Casablanca=Awesome Old Movie

okay
secret about me
i like romantic chick flicks
don't get me wrong
i love comedies too
and action movies
and horror
omigod
i love horror movies with a passion
but
when the music swells up and the heroine and hero kiss
well
i
am envious
yes
but also strangely happy
oh and
heads up
i watch desperate housewives too

OMIGOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY 43-YEAR-OLD AUNT HAD TWIN GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Unbearable

crushing
disappointment
makes me want to
cry
gnashing
my teeth in pain
i let out a
sigh
regret
bitter hopes crushed
wish i was a
guy
not quite
at the stage yet
that i want to
die

All Alone=Awesome Song By Gorillaz

i
feel
alone
no one
reads
my BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't Say I Have

ever been loved?
can't say i have.
ever been liked?
can't say that either.
ever been hated?
one word-yes.
ever been dated?
if you can call it that.
ever been flirted with?
nope, not really.
ever been f***ed with?
yes, most definitely.
ever wanted to cry?
only all the time.
ever wanted to die?
only a couple of times.
ever felt like escaping?
who hasn't?
ever felt like being discovered?
wouldn't you like to know...